"not enough words"

foreword: this was written on 16 June 2008 when i realized the overwhelming sense

of God's abundant love for me. every once in a while i begin to think way too much

and get drowned in my thoughts. everytime i think to ask God to switch my thoughts

for His, He always does and lets me breathe. He's always faithful, hey?

[POST] --

GOD WHY DO YOU DO THIS.
how are you so GRACIOUS and MERCIFUL and LOVING?
everything i need i HAVE IN YOU.
you know exactly how to meet me where i am and fill me to overflowing.
you know my thoughts and how to destroy them and make them yours.
you know my heart and how to take out the things that will overtake me.

YOU FILL ME WITH YOUR LOVE.
time and time again.

even when i don't take time out for you.
when i do my own thing and not even talk to you all day.
when i don't understand who i'm dealing with and when i take you for granted.
when i let my thoughts overtake my mind and heart instead of seeking yours.
when i let pride or jealousy or hate demolish the relationships you have given me.

why do we do this?
why do i do it over and over?

make me stop Jesus.
i am yours.
enough of this.

EMPTY ME.
FILL ME WITH YOU.

i hate who i am.
i want to be like you.

i thank you that i can vent.
i pray that you will continue to fill me with your undeserved love and peace and grace.
i pray that you will let it overflow with songs and hymns to you, my God; my Rock; my Salvation.

thank you for restoring the joy of my salvation.
just like i asked.

Matthew 7
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you."

you are amazing, Jesus.
make me more like you.

you turned my mourning into dancing.
you turned my sorrow into joy.
i will praise you forever more.

LET YOUR NAME BE LIFTED HIGHER.