wreck our hearts with Your love.

"It will not satisfy our souls just to read of the love of Jesus, to hear the most beautiful description of it, or even believe that He loves us. We must enjoy a sweet sense of it, be very conscious of His nearness, and feel the imprint of His kiss of love." -- L.M. McPhee

set ablaze.

COME BE THE FIRE INSIDE OF ME.

COME BE THE FLAME UPON MY HEART.

UNTIL YOU AND I ARE ONE.

time for a change.

so i know this is like a public blog and i'm not sure anyone actually reads it but this is just me rambling about things i wish to change. i don't really know why i write in this thing.

i'm sick of myself.

sick of who i've been and who i am.

sick of letting the things of this earth get me down and take over me.

sick of letting people treat me the way that they do.

sick of myself treating people the way i don't want to be.

sick of not using my time wisely.

sick of not having the right motives and the right heart.

sick of not loving Jesus the way He should be loved.

sick of not realizing who i should be in Christ.

when will it change?

when will i begin to make a change?

let's go deeper.

write more songs,

learn more words,

paint more pictures,

read more books,

sing new songs,

read more scripture,

ride more bikes,

play more instruments,

find more love,

speak more encouragement,

empower more people,

give more love,

have more compassion,

have a deeper romance,

i could go on for days.

let's go deeper now.

i'm holding my heart out.

i want to go deeper.

i want to understand love.

i want to accept grace.

i want to use the term "daddy."

i want to feel your presence in every waking moment of every day.

i want to embrace the little things in life and stop taking them for granted.

i want to extend my hand to the lost daily.

i want to be overwhelmed with compassion and love.

i want to search His heart more closely and stop being all talk.

i want my eyes to be opened and my heart to be moved.

i want to write a hymn of His unmatched glory.

i want to live a legacy for your name.

i want you more than i want to live another day.

when will my "wants" become "needs"?

so many words, so little time.

as you may well know, my brain never shuts off. 

but i guess for this moment i feel as if something is stirring inside of me.

i've been writing new songs, decorating my walls with endless pictures, writing a blog an hour and lately i've been  sitting outside just to listen to the birds sing. maybe it's just a phase or maybe it's because i'm onto something greater. something that bathes me in love and mercy until i cease. it's exciting, really. i've never been more thankful for life as i am now. everything and everyone in it. 

i'm also thankful for Laiza Cristhal Montes Recinos...my compassion child.

she is beautiful in every single way and i love her already.

thank yooou Jesus.

el fin...for now.

writings pt. duex

"all that i can do is hold onto you."

somehow, the words of bethany dillon never cease to ring true in my life day to day.

just when i thought there was nothing here for me and i was to go back, God pulled out 

His best and gave it to me to grab ahold of and run with. i couldn't be more thankful for the open doors. God is good, hey? not a prayer goes unanswered. so yeah, my heart is exploding with excitement for things to come and with a love for my maker. i don't know what i did to deserve this love but i'm never letting it go. i don't have much else to say except i had a dream that i was babysitting the "8" in john&kate+8 and it was amazing. i played with aaden the whole time, haha. 

by the way....thats kellie marie and she inspires me in every way even though she is still in australia. she is beautiful and keeps me going. i miss her and i miss my wall too. wah.

90-something days!!!